In some ways, that discussion in RRP was just another discussion in a week and a half that has somehow seemed to revolve around the topic of relationships. Three of my friends have gotten engaged in the last week. Three. One couple is juniors (congrats Anthony and Christy). While I'm stoked for them, it certainly hasn't helped me feel real on top of figuring out life.
I certainly didn't plan on graduating single. I did plan on being single for the beginning of freshman year. Which kind of stretched into the end of freshman year. And I had 3 summers that were fairly not conducive to dating. But I certainly didn't try for this. Funny how sometimes you give things to God and He doesn't give them back quite the same way as they were when you handed them over.
It's gotten to the point where I have had conversations with people who are surprised I am even open to dating. How did that happen? Potential future options (Peru, roadtrip, Africa) don't seem to have a lot of room for a relationship any time soon, either.
And yet, I am, for the most part, content with this. Not every day, not all the time, but mostly. High school me would have freaked out knowing that I'd go a solid 5+ years without a girlfriend. Now I'm seriously considering what it would mean to be single for the rest of my life.
Jesus seems to think it's a pretty decent idea. Paul concurs. Some really awesome people have done some awesome things for the Kingdom while being single.
Singleness is, in some ways, really good. It's nice to apply for jobs in Afghanistan and have at least one less reason not to go there. And I'm getting more and more comfortable with it.
Comfortable enough that I'm not sure what it's going to take to move out of singleness. Something would have to fit into my weird future of moving, being overseas, serving the poor, living with the poor, and, probably, being poor. It's going to take someone who's just as excited and passionate about those things as I am, and even more passionate about Jesus. Someone who will be able to convince me I'm wrong on the doubtful, hard days when I'm afraid that what I'm doing is crazy and doesn't mean anything. Someone who will push me to love Jesus more. And someone who I can do the same for.
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2 comments:
as always, very insightful...my guess is that there's someone out there with similar priorities, and only by following your priorities would you ever meet someone like that - if a relationship is what you end up wanting.
Dig the singleness posts. I have learned a lot about the single life out here in Utah and its all good stuff. Really I just get pumped thinking about how untied and free I am to follow God's call as a single person and really pumped knowing that if I do have somebody out there for me they are gonna be blow-your-mind awesome.
Good stuff dude. Keep on keeping on
allie
p.s. will you marry me?
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