It finally hit me.
After a ten hour drive back from North Carolina and a nice warm shower I sat down to catch up on email and relax for a bit. And it all began to become real. This is all ending.
This past week was wonderful. Despite whatever issues we may have had with one another, there's nothing quite like being able to eat homecooked meals with 14 of your best friends around a huge table. And knowing that they are homecooked because you are at home with your family. Perhaps it has been as dysfunctional sometimes as any other family, but it has been a wonderful community to me these past four years.
It's hard to see these closest relationships change. I've been blessed with a tightly knit community of friendship, fellowship, accountability, growth, challenge, and love. Those ties are starting to change. They're spreading out.
In some senses they're just making room for us to join new communities, new relationships. But that pushing out, that loss of daily contact, of knowing one another's comings and goings and thoughts and little troubles and daily joys... it hurts. It feels a little like getting my roots ripped out of the ground.
I will miss being able to switch effortlessly from joking to serious dialogue to silence and back again. To laugh at each other while being wrapped up in blankets on the beach shielding ourselves from frigid winds and looking slightly nunnish. I will miss running together. Sitting in hot tubs. Eating meals. Worshiping together. Car rides. Dance parties. All of the little things that make us friends.
Going to miss you all more than I can say.
1 comment:
it will be sad to see you all "go"...but the thing is...and not to sound cheesy...but you have made such an impact on my life that our stories are intertwined...so part of you has become who i am and vice versa...i think that's what God intended with fellowship...Jesus himself prayed that we become one as he and God are one...so no matter how far the distance or time, we will continue to grow together..and for that, i am extremely blessed.
and D.C. will be similar...you are going to meet people there that you will come to know and love...they will challenge you, make you cry, make you laugh, open your eyes, soften your heart, and share their lives with you and you will do the same.
the kingdom of God is a limitless castle...you are merely walking into the hall and checking out the next room
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